Weakness.

Please forgive me in my moment of weakness. He does that to me.

But I came to an epiphany today. I dont have to be sorry...I have nothing to be sorry for.
If anything I am sorry I loved so much.

I didnt do anything wrong...I gave so many opportunities..but he would rather run.
Instead of fix things with me his wife, and be with his kids he ran. Found someone new to hide behind.

Like my friend said "what a coward."
He had me. He had his boys...all we wanted was him.
We wanted him around to be there with us in all the fun times. He would rather do is "hobby" or be with his girl.
We never mattered, because if we did...he would have fixed us a LONG time ago.
Probably before our sweet twins came around.

This hurts so much...words cant describe.
I am so broken.
Part of me wants to just run back anyways, because I love him. I want our family I want us...but honestly when I look back...I dont think I can honestly forgive and forget about him being with someone else.

In our house..
In our bed...

How can he do this to me?

I will never know.