Ever After.

A favorite movie of mine has been on and catching my attention lately...
Ever After.

When I was little I LOVED this movie :)
Drew Barrymore is amazing in it. Its a swing off of Cinderella.
Its about love, and looking past all of the other things and just loving that person for who they are.
Something that has been in my mind.

Also..towards the end of the move there is a quote that has stuck with me

"I know that a life without love is NO life at all."

It hit me hard with the war in my head.

A stupid war.

About love.

Aside of this bullshit going on with Charlie and him "moving on" I love him. I am still married to him and we have 4 amazing kids together. I want to be a family. I want to try really bad. But I have made up my mind. This is it. He works and we work things out great. He backs out or doesnt try I'm out. Because for some reason..I feel like if I dont give it my all ONE last time then I failed. My heart is driving me towards this..pushing me to just keep going...its whats meant to be. However, his "ex" girlfriend is bugging me still...Ugh this war in my head....

Pray for me :)