Dizzy

I cant figure out what my head is saying...what my heart is saying...what to do.

Since the huge blow to my brain and my heart...i got the urge to push forward with Charlie.
Am I dumb????
In my own defense...I feel like its right.

Does he deserve it? Hell no. Do I? No...

Then why do I feel like this? Its wierd. I get soo angry and hurt...and then I love him.

UGH....

How do people forgive...after this?
Am I right to consider doing so...or am I stupid?

I guess we will find out.