Deployment blues

Thats the only thing I can think of to explain my mood.

I have been super mushy in my head...Im ready for my husband to come home and wrap me in his arms and let all of my bad thoughts fly away like butterflies as we kiss.
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Its the rains fault. I am stuck in the house and even tho my boys are keeping me busy and going..still my mind is just...gone.

Especially when the song Arms comes on by Christina Perri..Hot damn that song.
Its like a romantic song but its not. Its the insecurities of a love, a love like mine. We have our holes in our marriage especially now but I am strong, and so is he(finally! took him long enough pfft)

And I am beyond ready to kickstart this marriage AGAIN. I think we are FINALLY on the same page...hopefully(fingers crossed). Distance DOES not help a wounded relationship Ill tell ya that. Or maybe it does and I just cant see it.

Who knows.

Also for the twilighters out there like me, I have found a NEW love in the soundtrack. It has Christina Perri in it(I think she is a favorite now) and Turning Page (the wedding song) OMG if we renew our vows that song will be playing and I DO NOT care if people make fun of me because it is in twilight. It is a beautiful love song and I am addicted :)

So as for my blues I am letting them pour out into romantic songs by Christina Perri and my new book Im reading The Lucky One. Even tho it is a marine I still picture an Army man because I can.

:)

Good night all.