I love him.

My head says this like a thousand times a day.
When Im mad, happy, proud even sad...my head always goes to "...but I love him."

Maybe its a positive look on some situations, its almost always a pride thing when it comes to the boys.
I do love them..in every single way possible. And my new favorite thing with my boys is how Jaxon has a real serious mad face, Jaden has to ask every single question he can come up with..even if he knows the answer, and I lovee the way Brayden looks at me...there is no greater love. And today I loved how my babies were chasing..yes CHASING the vacuum.

And with Charlie its everything. I am always saying in my head how much I love him. Even when he has pissed me off so bad all I want to do is scream...I love him. Cuz I do. Here are some of my things...
I love how he sends me random pics.
I love the way he tells me he loves me.
I love how much he adores our boys.
I love how much he loves his job(even tho his job scares me).
I love his smile.
I love how shy he gets when I say something.
I just love him...and despite everything we have been through..nothing will change that.
When we were separated, every one said "well of course you love him, he is the father of your babies.." but it is WAY more then that. I can feel it.

I just love him.

I was reading "The Love Dare." and in every chapter and every challenge, I would have little memories of when I did something that the book suggested and how much I love my Charlie. Even after all that has happened and every thing that changed...I love him now and forever.

Seems mushy I know..and I am happy I can finally let it out. I cant tell my boys how much I love their daddy. They already know.

Oh how I love him ♥