Moving on...starting over?

Of course I had to get the new cd from Jennifer Lopez...and its AMAZING :) As expected.

What I love the absolute most is how much I relate to certain songs on there..this on in particular is an absolute glimpse to what has been in my mind for the past year. I am putting the song as song of the day but Im also going to put the lyrics up too...so you dont miss it. Charlie has always thought it was weird that I relate my emotions to songs. Maybe it is...but Im not good with explaining how I feel..so I listen to music and when a song strikes a chord with my emotions...it helps me.

Weird, I guess...blame it on my dad

Anyways..here are the lyrics...

He's all right
He's all wrong
He's a player
He's a dog

He's my friend
He's my foe
I just can't leave him
I can't let go

I got my reasons
'Got my pride
We've got these kids
We got this life

We had this love
I had these dreams
I'm falling apart at the seems

He's my man when we're at home
And it can't hurt if I don't know
All his secrets all his lies
I just keep pushing 'em out my mind
I wish that everybody would stop judging
Pointing fingers its cutting
My heart is broken
And no better, feeling so bad

I gotta make decisions
I'm strong but who am I kidding
I'll be okay
But this love is tearing me in half

Nobody wants to be the one breaking up
I'm down on my knees and praying for his love

I'm in love
I'm still in love
I just don't think that it's enough
I can feel it getting colder
I'm afraid of starting over

He makes me feel like a child
He makes me happy when he smiles
He makes me sad
Makes me mad
Want to give him all I have
And I have tried to treat him good
Show support like I should
Did my part, he's my heart
And I've been faithful from the start

He's my man when we're at home
And it can't hurt if I don't know
All his secrets all his lies
I just keep pushing 'em out my mind
I wish that everybody would stop judging
Pointing fingers its cutting
My heart is broken
No more better, feeling so bad

I gotta make decisions
I'm strong but who am I kidding
I'll be okay
But this love is tearing me in half

Nobody wants to be the one breaking up
I'm down on my knees and praying for his love

I'm in love
I'm still in love
I just don't think that it's enough
I can feel it getting colder
I'm afraid of starting over

To save this life
We built together
We need another chance
It's like my whole life
And my existence
He holds in his hands

Nobody wants to be the one breaking up
I'm down on my knees and praying for his love

I'm in love
I'm still in love
I just don't think that it's enough
I can feel it getting colder

The time has come for starting over

It blows my mind how well this song..just totally explains everything that has been in my head. The "war" as I call it.